memoirs

Happy new year!

Well, something dramatic happened just now,i'll post it tmr? Today i'll be going thru wad i hav done this year, and my resolutions for the upcoming one..Will be pretty random!

Alright, lets start with something happy. Hmm, this is the year i made my comeback into football! And things were pretty crazy since, i miraculously scored in 9 consecutive games. wow. Its unbelievable, just thinking about that. Of course, this feat can nv be accomplished without my wonderful teammates! The sad thing is that, though i felt i become a better team player, i deproved alot individually? I dont know what happened..

Lets go on to the social part. Kept close with close friends.(=.=) But didnt think i made alot of new friends barh.. What can i do lol, even my mum says i looked as if i wanna kill someone everytime?haha!

Financial! I need to manage my money, cut down on impulse buys..By the time im 25, i wanna visit Old Trafford!(= So, i need to eat lesser? Yea, ppl who noe me will noe..I eat buffet sure value one. L0L

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When i was i Primary 6, i longed for seconday sch life. When i was in sec1, i missed P6, regretted tt i didnt cherish P6 and i hated sec sch. When i was in sec 2, life was okay.. Time passed quickly when hanging ard with those fun loving classmates. When i was in sec3, i regretted not cherishing my sec2 mates, and i hated sec3. When i was in sec 4, life was okay..Until now, i miss sec 4!~~ I miss my sch, my classmates, my sch mates..

To my sch mates: Though i am not close with most, u guys were the pillars of HYSS and everyone's presence was deeply appreciated..

To my classmates: Though i seriously am not close with most,but i thought everyone was unique and special in their own ways? I missed the chance to make more friends in this class, i dun wanna miss the chance to wish everyone all the best here. All the best everyone..Dream what you wanna dream..And go where u wanna go, becuz we only live once and we have only one chance to do the things we wanna do! And lastly, good luck for o lvl results! Always rememer 4e2'08. All the best!

To my teammates: Thanks everyone, for giving me a chance to play in this wonderful team called Kalour. We played as a team, and won all of our matches as a team! Keep in contact guys! Next time we all get married, ask all our kids form another team! and make sure that team is invincible, haha.

And to my so called clique. ( Js, Jh , Yl , Daren):

3 epl fanatics, 2 dota fanatics. L0L.
Js's my winning eleven buddy, both lost to me in terms of entertainment produced when playing. The best known passer of the ball to me. L0L. The blood of the red devils run in us! Chatting buddy too! He possess an incredibly high EQ too. Sometimes think in a simpler way, dont always reverse psychology..haha.

Jh, my gym buddy, often gym tgt b4 o lvls period?Gym with him v stressed one leh! He so fit! Gym soon! Always complain that his hair v er xin. lol. Its alright la! Dont keep finding problems with ur hair! lol.

Yl, still rmbed the times in sec2 when the whole class wud conn our chinese tcher into believing that im yiloon, ur yicong. L0L! Mac breakfast buddy! Very on for breakfast one,haha. Both of us hardcore mac breakfast fans! Dont dota too much larh..Too much time in front of com not good.

Daren's the most on, call him anytime, he sure on. But he needs to manage his money carefully barh..Dun anyhow spend! Money is important! Money saved is money earned..

To my teachers.
Mr lee: I liked chemisty becuz of him i think? Injects humour into his lessons and always explains his lessons clearly! Soccer fanatic too? But...Why liverpool? L0L.

Mdm yeo: I remember how defiant i was towards you during sec3, i didnt have a chance to apologise to u..?You are the undisputed most caring and most hardworking teacher, always making us stayback so as to explain the physics concepts more clearly. I did not understand your 'ku xin' then, hope you can pardon my immaturity..? Thanks for everything!

Misslee: You taught me for 4 years running, no doubt i'll miss you the most? Thanks for being patient with me, all my attitude problems i have given u this 4 years. I'll change to become a better person i promise! And Thank You for not giving up on me when my results are v v lousy..I wanna tell u this during prom one, but dont have the courage to, so i'll do it here?Even if you see this, pretend that u nv see okay?haha. Gratz on getting married!

Last but the most.

To my parents.

Dad: You're the humorous but strict type, i understand all your naggings(yes my dad nags). Everyday when i am preparing to go out, he will surely tell me " Son,look at me. Always do the right thing, follow the law." Then i'll always brush him off, asking him if he bored.lol.. Hes my mentor! Discipline! Oh ya, till now he stilll kept annoying me, saying that i should GO FOR SOCCER TRAINING EVEN THOUGH I BROKE MY LEG.. haha, thats discipline according to him?

Mom: Shes my friend, my mom. Nothing can describle my relationship with her.. If dad was craving out discipline lines in me, mum would be the one that mold me into my shape.. Without her, there'll be no me! I''ll do my best in my studies, wun let u worry one, promise!

Yicong. 4

Tag replies:

oPx: nope, its found somewhere in the sports section? if u flip from the end, its right after epl..
oPx: lol, yea! Enjoy it, im changing blogsong today? and thanks for tagging!
goiling: lol! then like that means oPx is twice as kind hearted as u? haha, jkjk. Thanks thanks(=

I woke up and looked at my hp, had the biggest shock of my life. It says 615am.. I MISSED MANCHESTER UNITED's MATCH!!~~!~!~!~ Dn i quickly got out of bed, chiong to my living room, on the tv and turned to channel 27. Woah, Manu! luckly havn play finish, i thought to myself. Then i saw roy keane, i saw beckham... I want cry man!

I slept early for this match then i can't wake...Sorry united, sorry sorry sorry..

Alright, normal mode.

Okay, happy about not working today? Finally some time to gym, jog, cut hair, etc?(i woke up early, i dun wanna waste today!)

The above is typed at around 630am.

Erm, im back from my morning jog and breakfast(=

Anyone wanna gym later? anyone wanna go out later? Msn or sms me~

Ps: i changed style, tag replies on top if u noticed.

Yeah, the reason im broke..

Sad man! i missed soccer today becuz of an injury i picked up from ytd's match. Arh..My ankle guard, which was supposed to prevent injuries, caused my injury.. Cuz it was too tight, then somehow after the pain, after i removed it, my feet dammmmmn painful.. My walking speed is now super slow, even harry can win in now?haha.

I MISS FOOTBALL..

Tag replies:

xueling: Merry christmas! belated..ty for tagging!
Js: Some things are just meant to be..
JASLYN:D: haha, alright thanks for being so kind hearted!
finn: lol, thank you thank you, u are kind hearted. L0L.

I played from late secondhalf towards the end.
Played like shit though..
No doubt my poorest one this year..
Hais, time to do something about it..
On a happier note, we won 4-1!

Okay, think im gg to jp with my parents tmr, shop shop abit, haha, now dunid go so far le, got JP! (as u can see, even the font is big)

Takecare everyone, till then....

Any kind hearted souls tag me pls?(good rite, tag me and u become kind hearted)

Yup, this is my second post this morning. read the first if u have not?

Yea,i just read the newpaper.

This lady, Yip Pin Xiu, who represented Singapore in the Bejing Paralympics caught my attention. Shes the first paralympic gold medalist in sg's history! I read about her attitude towards life, and most importantly, her passion. How she perserved and believed in her dream while suffering from a muscular disease. This was the glow in her. Its this very glow that can ignite the darkest of times, and give our lives a very important element known as-meaning.

How many truely understands and accepts the meaning of their presence? Let me rephrase this- who never doubted his or her own existence?
Would u believe in swimming, if u spend your entire time in a wheelchair?

Another thing about her that captured my heart is her optimisium and accepting mindset. She can joke about being unable to walk, and how injuiring her leg would do nothing to affect her performace as a sportsperson in the pool.
This may be the factor thats eluding me.. No, maybe im the one avoiding it.

I sat down after reading her article and looked ino the mirror. I see a joke. I laughed. And i woke up.

Pin Xiu, you ran faster than me to pursue your goals. Rest assured, I'll start running again. Don't look back ir i'll catch ya!

This is all too timely. Good.

Well, i'll be playing the first match for vanguard later on, and of course, im nervous just thinking about it. Will be involved in the first 45min i guess? But i duno how to approach the game......Composed or chiong-style? arh.... Just hope to be able to play my best..I'll try my best though, and hopefully score?But ultimately the team must win.

Alright, im trembling now, not in the correct condition to blog..

Will update results at night..

Recently hooked on my blogsong, yue ding. Enjoy:


说好的三年不见面
Promising that we don't see each other in 3 years time

用我们的爱把时间留住
Using our love to stop the time

你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
You smiling, saying that this is our test, our promise

就这样三年又过了
Just like that, 3 years have passed

我还是回到这个地方
I still go back to this place

闭上眼等你的出现
Closing my eyes awaiting for your arrival

空气中吻你的脸
Kissing your face in the air

我还记得我们的约定
I still remember our promise

一辈子幸福的约定
The happy promise for the whole life

为你写的那首歌
The song that I've written for you

他也偷偷的掉泪了
He also secretly cried

我比以前还更爱你了
I love you more than before

连那风都笑我了
Even the wind laughed at me

我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
I think he will tell you that I love you more

我想他会告诉你的
I think he will tell you

你会记得我们的约定
You will remember our promise

听着风我也笑了
Hearing the wind, I smile too

他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了
I think he will tell you that I even love you more

A reply to js's blog.

This boy experienced a different scenario,but in a different kopitiam. This kopitiam was never full, as expected from its unusually high prices. Unlike that boy mentioned, this boy likes a particular dish..That he never tasted before. Contended to just admiring at how the dish was prepared and served, the boy silently haboured a dream.

Even if it was meant for him to scrim and save, someday,somehow, he would have crawled to the finishing line!

So everynight, the boy starved himself so as to save money. He motivated himself by walking past the kopitiam fornightly, occasionally stealing a minimal glance at his dream.
He firmly believed that he did not need a rich family nor high paying job to enjoy the delicacy. He's keen of achiving his target through pure, hard work- That is to save.

Finally, the day arrived.
Already weak from the endless starvings, his way to the kopitiam was tough and long. The aroma of food was getting stronger..Soon..

He frozed when he saw the price tag. No, its not what ur thinking.
He misread the price,the decimal point was too small to be noticed from far. He had long reached his target, but the fullfillment was no longer there. The joy evapourated and his heart sank.. Slowly, he walked away, dejected. What he perservered for, what he dreamt and yearn for.. Everything bears no meaning..?He no longer saw meaning in life..

Then, the fly resting on the price tag flew away.

The closer you are to something, the harder for you to see it..

Merry Christmas!
Alright, I am back from work.
And i'll be working till next wed, official(=
Happy.

By wed, i should be able to earn around 1400plus?
Heres my plan:

700 bucks is cannot touch one, for rainy days.
Left 700.
Return 150bucks to dad, left 550. Clothes etc etc 400bucks. left 150, later dn decide..

Tomorrow not working, anyone wanna go out? Go eat waffle! Sms/msn me.

Tag replies:

Olga: lol, thats bad news, lidat means the probability of being called uncle is higher for me? haaa. oh. I tried to endure, but still find working meaningless? thanks anw!(=
xueling: L0L, sometimes money's not everything barh? i work thr, not happy. L0L. Thanks anw!



My all time favourite.

Almost 3 years ago, u left us and moved on.
Without you, ManUtd's nv the same again..
I remembered the moment when u slide across the field after u scored against arsenal, ending their unbeaten run.
I remembered how keown and co bullied you..
Its still up there, i remembered how well u linked with beckham..
And i remember how u taunted cristiano ron..

And i remembered how happy i was when u rejected a move to ur present club..
Yea, you moved on soon after..

I still harbors hope of u returning to United..
Without you, its nv the same..

Ruud Van Nistelrooy.

Me not happy.

Haaaaa. I am tired. I am sick. I am frustrated.

Tomorrow, working again from 8am till 8pm. I am really really very tired....Cannot already la! I am not a freaking robot man! i need to rest, i need to sleep, i need to play.. This is my limit already..

Emotional limit. Go to work sure v v sad one, duno y oso. Must be the songs they play. Everyday go work will damn sad, budn the moment im released, im fine again. Blaaarrr.
I really need a good rest..

I really need a good rest...

I am tired.

I am dead beat.

I can't go on..

Mommy and brother's gg malaysia tmr. Dad's working the whole day. Means that i'll be alone after i knock off. I don't like that. Help.

Tag replies:

wil: thanks for tagging!
sasfinn: lol, relax relax. Give me an example of exciting leh?lol!
liwen: haha, npnp(= ty for tagging too!
Js: Yea, nice.
kaixiang: wow, glad someone understands my post! hahaha!
wil: yea right. I need a break..

i woke up today, happy. Becuz i rmb my dream(=

Alright, i woke up from my dream, but that dun mean that i dont love the beautiful game anymore. haha. Sooooooocccccccceeeeerrrrrrr!

Okay, firstly i survived this week's 8 to 8! phew, it sure was tiring, working my socks off everyday! (yea, really took them off at the end of the day).. The other thing i wanna mention is that the food sucks there..Cold and tasteless, so i had to wake up at 6am in the morning, to go and buy my lunch =.=

Tiring arh, everyday go to work first thing is to pray and eagerly await for lunchtime, and then tea break, and then finally home.

So, my routine's more or less this:

Wake up, work, homed, sleep, wake up work again! For 5days~~~~~~~

Take pity, save me.

Work work work, i miss the sun..

Anyway, just wanna share 2 incidents.

First:
I was slacking at a busstop, waiting for time to pass to go to work,

Unknown stranger: Hey, this one urs ar? (points to the car obstructing his truck) Can reverse a little bit?


Second:

Was chatting with a colleague:

Colleague: blar blar blar.... wah so how old are u now?

me: 16 lor.

Colleague: Wah! I tot u r around my age!

me: oh, so how old r u?

colleague: Guess?

(cuz colleague's a female)

me: er. 18?

colleague: not bad not bad, I am 20. (give me a smile then walk away)


Moral of the story:

I am random(=


Tag replies:

kaixiang: yea, chocolate's addictive~
KRISTLE: lol, u tag me, 90% of content all same one, no variety! haha.
yc: oh, hi!
rq: wahhh heng ar, i tot i have spit personality. lol




Working tmr, gona sleep early. Nites everyone, do tag!

I am stressed.

Went jp to slack around just now, cuz tmr need to work, so today go explore the new jp abit.lol.

Dined at LAI LAI, erm its different from the lai lai that sells chicken rice.
I had this- Erms some meat plus braised peanuts plus unknown vege. Not bad.

This is my drink, red bean freeze, theres really a topping of red bean! lol. Then jh's blackcurrent oso have blackcurrent. If i had known earlier,i wud have ordered chocolate freeze! sure have chocolate.lol
Erm, after that went Bakerzin slack. Its somewhere beside starbucks?
Had hot chocolate(=
Jh's pm

After that walk walk abit, then homed. I spent my future money~ lol.
Going to work tmr! hah. 8am to 8pm sure is fierce.
I am at a lost, should i work till the end of next month? or this month? Work is really tiring, and i am suffering from the effects.But theres money to be made~ $.$ Any advices?

Tag replies:

weijie: haha. thanks! greatly appreciated for that(=
Js: yea, but I am still not out of the hole, and i don't know how to get out of the hole. How?
Haolan: hi, long time no c again! lol.

Js: I finally realised, that initially, i was in the hole.
sasfinn: hi, thanks for taggging!
Olga: L0L, i like this song! haha.
Olga: oh. haha. Thanks alot really! lol.

Dear diary,

Its finally, D day.
The happiest day of life. The day i got really enlightened.That a footballer was a distant dream, that only i believed in. It made me gave up on something really important to me as a kid, as a teen. The past 6 years. They talked and brainwashed me to no avail, but this time round...Finally.
I don't need anyone to tell me anything now, I understood. I am already at my limit,,and i finally knew it.

I will study hard, i promise. Poly or Jc(the latter seems impossible), i'll do my best. And earn lots of money in the future, and bring my loved ones out to some fancy restaurant once every few weeks.

3 times a week gym?
Jogging after gym?
Healthy diet?
Skipping?
Whats this unrealistic routine?No more..no more.

13th December 2008. I will remember this day-The day my heart cried..And dream died..

Thanks for everyone's support. Deeply appreciated(=

At least..
i once believed.
And i know, that i tried my best.

I'll be updating tmr! Cause this few days working, too tired to update.
Proper update tmr.(=

Countdown: 5 days to war.

And, i have received my timely motivation/drive/inspiration from the person i respect most on Earth! He changed his duties with a colleague, so as just to be present to watch me fight! Yea, seemed simple, but i am honored(= His presence always bring me confidence and instill some warrior like mentality in me. Most importantly, now I am hungry. I feel the lust. Yes, its time for war. I took the first step with you, and now i am gonna show u how much i have learn all this years. Watch.


wa lao eh...above write until lidat, if lose i need to dig a hole and hide inside=.=
God bless me.

Tag me....~? Thanks.

Heloo everybody,

was busy working this week, thats why not much chance to post.

Got worker's pass one haha. Working from 8am till 8pm. Long huh, zzz. Weekends free, anyone wanna go out jio me~

haha.

Today, Friday i had an off day.SUpppppppper happy!
Its a long day though, went polyclinic, see doctor. Collected a total of 5 different medicines haha. Dont get it wrong, just suffering from various illnesses, all minor(=

After that went for haircut at snip avenue, there cut cheap, plus the hairstylists there oso okay one. Save money.lol. Anyway, i called daren down to accompany me. Thanks! hes always so free.


Daren recommended me this. Fried rice plus egg plus chicken chop 4.30 dollars.(= Nice, tasty delicious.Try it, near HYSS's nearby KFC.

Then homed awhile, went to the gym at Jw sports complex. Wow, i spammed ny usual 1.5hr workout into half an hr! Cause meeting js at jp later for dinner. Damn super tiring, gonna have some discomfort waking up tmr.....

Yea, as i said, went jp and dined at Lai Lai, with js, daren. Good food!

Went home soon after.

Hear from me soon.Takecare readers!

Tag replies:

YANBIN: lol, thanks! Simple, see already more shu fu.haha.
aSecret: hey, yea dun set goals. Be the goal.(=
goiling: L0L, yea, actually good mah rite, can jian fei, plus can sleep! lol.
liwen: haha thanks! all went well that day(=
sasfinn: L0L, dun rub salt into my wounds. Quite saddddd leh nv go. *Envy u all*
KRISTLE: L0L.. good wad. Learnt lots of things one.haha.ahhhniiiannn sounds more human dn onion?haha. eh, call me yicong lar.
kaixiang: BOOOO! hows life? bon voyage!