memoirs

The only motivation left in me is that unfulfilled dream of visiting OT. It sort of kept me alive. The sole purpose of generating enough money for the trip is enough to spur me on to work hard in my studies.. Positive motivation? haha.
All my other dreams were either too unrealistic or already impossible. It was kind of sad thinking about them again, all the old wounds began to hurt..

Anyway, was doing chin ups near my home sometime ago when my mom said that how pleased she was that I took up guitar lessons. She then proceed to tell me that if i become better, i would have an additional choice of CCA after I got into uni. "Good?" I replied. "I can join soccer." She looked up to me and continued: "You did not get into your school team did you?"

That hurts.








The roar of Old Trafford sent shivers down my spine instantly.. Great feeling. I shall be there someday :D

Woo. Its a super duper great feeling to be healthy.
Sometimes, we just tend to forget the importance of being healthy when we're well, and hence neglecting and depriving the much needed rest for our bodies.

But I firmly believe that we'll appreciate sunlight more, after we have been in darkness. In this case, appreciate a healthy body after knowing what its like to be sick.

Had a chat with my parents and they suggested that my recent succumb to illness was due to my overly packed schedule. They told me that sleeping at 3am on friday nights, waking up to gym on a saturday morning followed by soccer in the afternoon and guitar lessons at night was a tad too much for my body to handle.
I can't possibly disagree.

Abit too tired to continue. Gonna sleep early today!

My end. I can feel it.

It's a tough yesterday. I couldnt feel my own legs after the 3 rounds of intense vomiting, every single second feels like a minute. Trust me, it was scary. For the first time in my life, pain from the injection felt good. At least I felt alive from the pain..

It's alot better after the injection :D

Anyway, just now I was waiting for bus at an unusually empty busstop for quite some time until I realised IT IS NOT A BUSSTOP. Damn you taxi stand! Off to sleep and recover from my illness..

There will only be courage when there is fear. Brave people are people who dared to try and do what they are afraid of. They shiver thoughout the ordeal too. Be brave, and once you made that very first step, you conquered yourself! I dare not say that nothing is impossible, but surpassing your own fears will always be achievable. All of us wanna be telling our kids how brave we were 20 years down the road yea?

Life is short, 18 years have passed. If we get to live till 90, 20% of our life is already consumed. What can be more important than living life the way we want? We have only one chance to make sure that we're remembered for the right reasons.

You have the pen. How will you continue writing?

My Autocad assignment. Feels good to have completed it in time :D


I really really hate school! Seriously a waste of time, if not for the attendence, I wouldnt even go at all. Just give me those notes and I'll study them myself! Most lecturers are useless anyway.. I am only there for a higher purpose..

I wanted to continue on this post, but sadly, I just received a msg from my class chairperson saying that I have a test tmr! Holy timing, its 1030pm now. Gonna study! Cya guys!

I will not be sleeping tonight unless I finish this post.

A minute ago, I just decided on something. I was not born into this world to repair a freaking airplane that I have totally no interest in. I was not born into this world to be looked down on. I wanna be somebody.Its decided. I dont wanna be the next Bill Gates or the next Roman Abramovic. I wanna be the next Yicong.

Life is not about a single dream. I believe that after you wake up, there will be a time when you sleep again. And when you sleep, you dream. :D

"Once upon a time, we all had Dreams-
To do something. Be somebody.

Perhaps we were too young then
Perhaps dreaming was something only the rich could afford
Perhaps it is safer to follow the crowd and do the right thing
Perhaps there are commitments now

Perhaps
Enough time has passed
We can only choose to forget the long overdue Dream

The Dream
That someday we could
Do something we love
Be someone greater

What if you still remember yours?
What if somewhere inside you still wants to accomplish the Dream?
What if some moments in your life were spent what-if-ing?

And one of those what-ifs were
"What if I believe?"

And for that one fleeting moment
You'd believed
Believed that Dreams Can Come True

Join this group
Support fellow Dream chasers
And spread the belief

Because
When you Believe
Dreams really Can Come True"

- from http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/group.php?gid=171991367311&ref=ts

Just a list of conclusions I made from the year 2009.

I feel that the highlight of 2009 is my supposing back door entry to my current school? haha. Was very lucky to be accepted at that point of time :D

I miss those times in hyss. In 2008, it's just like a second home to all of us =X

Time is unforgiving. Sense of responsibility is to be proportional with age. I hate the fact that I am 18 this year! I am increasingly troubled with how I want my future to shape up. What I wanna do in the future, what I must do now in order to achieve those goals. I wanna be a successful person in life!

I hate the feeling of growing up. In the past, I can sign up for whatever programs that im interested in without any worries. But now, even if I am extremely interested in a particular event, I'll be very hesitant and think about how the event will affect me academically. Damn!

Love.
I dont trust love and everything associated with it. Because you know that at this age, even if a girl made you go crazy and all over her, she's not gonna be the one walking down the aisle with you. Life.

Attitude - Stubbornness.
Dont ever tell someone that he or she is stubborn. It is not possible for one to be stubborn himself. It takes two hands to clap.


Resolution.

Be myself.
Score well from my exams.
Be true to friends.
Improve my English.
Catch up with some of my friends.
Be generous.
To believe again.


Happy new year, my readers :D