memoirs

I am back.(=

Was quite emotionally disturbed for the past 10days or so, down. Reason being................




I don't love soccer anymore. Strange, but true. That ecstatic feeling when i stepped into the field, its a thing of the past. Nowadays, when i stepped onto the field, i take my time, i'll slowly make a glance at the sky, looking for any birds i cud find. If there're any, i'll proceed to analyze the behavior of them.. And i can continue.. Where is that focus i once had???????? I really wanna devote all my attention, time, and money into this beautiful game, but i must have the permission from my heart..

Oh my god, i feel i am fading away from this world, theres just no more ground for me to hold on. Wheres that desire to suceed, that desire to overcome, that desire to purse and that desire to improve?

I see myself as a blank.

Will be starting on a long long long post after my orientation camp from thurs to sat! It may take awhile. In the meantime, keep the tags coming in alright? Thanks people(=

Tag replies:

harry: lol, one day only?
xueling: haha, thanks alot(=
oPx: haha, tyty.. (:
siyu: Deeply appreciated(=
js: Mentaly, i am dead.
kaitai: haha, agree agree. Play ball soon!
sheena: haha, link u now!
KRISTLE: haha, thanks ar! U tc too!
xueling: lol, i now read i also dun understand =X
sasfinn: lol, 100percent agree!